People always think your life is rainbows and sunshine but I have officially reached that point where I am going to leak it all.
Dear Inner Ability to Fight,
Everybody walk in life is different and you are faced with many trails and joyous moments. I’m at the point of confusion. One part of me like yeah this is where I want to be and the other is not so much in the mood for the foolishness that occurs. You know what I can spell it out for you my life is a comic relief of fuckery. I have good days like everyone else and I have bad days. I am fallen in routine to being something I have never wanted to be.
Broken hearts and lost dreams can cause a person to be poisoned with the most terrible characteristics. To pretend to enjoy life and to fool your own self that you are happy is beyond crazy. Happiness and the joy of life isn’t something a person should pretend about. Everyday expressing oneself is becoming harder and harder I am distracted by the dreams and ambitions of my master plan. Every day I spend wasting my fucking time I realized that I will never make it to where I need to be in life with that mindset. There is such a thing as wasting time. Time is, in fact, the most valuable thing a person has. Something so trivial as time is something that a person cannot get back. So take it from me once that moment is gone there will never be another one just like it. The moment will turn itself into a memory. I am pre-warning you that you want all of your memories to be good. Some memories are in fact not good but don’t regret them, you will have to eventually find a way to move on from them. While you are moving on make sure you are learning something from that experience. Memories are your personal experiences.
One will never truly be happy with their life if they are always comparing people to people and holding them accountable to your expectations of who they should be. If your expectation of them becomes shorter than your target goal than it may be time to eject and subtract yourself from that situation. Love that is once lost is a perfect example. Once lost you cannot have those moments again. There aren’t any do-overs in life, fortunately. If there was I swear I have 5 things I would do differently in my own life while others think life lessons are best left just the way they are. I am more upset at myself for letting me develop into this black swirl of doom. I swear it is so hard to find a way out of this. There aren’t no tears falling from these eyes. There are no more fears of failing. Just me, myself, and I. That’s whose back I have to have first and foremost.
Yours Truly,
SincerelyWishes
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